There Have Been

Bad Moments


Shellfish
Turning spires and spittle of pearls to perplex the young diver...
4-13

How long can I float on these waters? How long does the ocean abide her intruders? My soul belongs in the water, but my skin turns to a raisin when I stay too long. I can't swim forever, but the bottom will stop my descent.
 
Subtract nine for the days spent in shadow.
Divide ten for all the things you should have said.
 
Offhand mentions. Sparkling reminders.

 
The days rotate away the star, new presses the old to oil. So much to see, so much to be. Why do I wonder when there is still so much that can be done? Why do I run when there is still a place to stay?
 
"...Long has paled that sunny sky:
Echoes fade and memories die:
Autumn frosts have slain July..."
 
I write again, and it's heaven in a sundress. But then it disappears. Music comes and goes. Not the desire, never the hunger...
 
But the moment and the happening -- like leaves falling from a tree.
 
Is this what I am?

 
Your last name is Carpenter because long ago, your ancestors built something.
Your last name is Singer. Your last name is Taylor. Your last name is Cook.

 
 
                                          What will they call me?

 
 
There is no snare. There is no rein. My corners are of my own construction, yet I tick off the days on my walls like shawshank. Then the marks become a pattern, and connected lines become a forest, a mural, a relief.
 
"Alice moving under skies, Never seen by waking eyes "
 
What I hate is the cage. What I loathe is the restraint. So again and again, I find a way to make the irons into ivy, locks into lilies. You see me pace the pen while I run endless savannas.
 
Pagurus berhardus
In my Eden I will stay,
Pagurus armatus
In my garden I will play.

 
Just don't open the cage. Don't make me choose.

 
How Did You Know?
 

Next

Previous

Index

Hex's Notes

Sleep Dirt

sign

view

email me!