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Wake up songs
Shake 'em up, shake 'em up, shake 'em up, shake 'em…
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Sunday morning, early light trickles through kitchen blinds in yellow-white tangents that are alive with tiny asteroid belts of dust, cat hair, and the sprits of the departed evening.
 
We all slept in a bit this morning, but the kid needs to eat. I take him into the living room and set him in his playpen before heading into the kitchen to assemble the pieces of his breakfast.
 
He's groggy, but still manages to produce a series of high pitched, impatient cries while I try to focus my motorskills on buttering toast, finding a bib, and pouring apple juice into his cup.
 
As much as I want to be a help to Kim, take these tasks off her hands and let her sleep in, I am unpracticed, and it probably takes much longer for me to get everything coordinated the way mom does.
 
My son expresses his disappointment.
 

I rush over and bribe him with a graham cracker.

 
He accepts my cinnamon-dusted hush money, but something in his eyes tells me that I should hurry up with his meal. The toast pops up.
 
Soon he's mashing bread in the general direction of his mouth. I keep an eye on him, check e-mail.
 
Weekend mornings should be slower paced. That's my gut feeling. Children change this to an extent (children change everything to an extent), but one day soon I hope he will be waking from his own bed, sneaking out to the kitchen on his own to eat too many bowls of marshmallow cereal and watch cartoons.
 
Having a nine to five gig makes you want to sleep in. Especially nocturnal types like me who follow up full workdays with mindless hours in front of a TV.
 
Kim and I spent some time with some other couples we know - sort of a 'Cinco de Mayo without having to watch the kids' thing. It was a good time, and Kim was radiant with excitement over the chance to socialize. She came home smiling and tired, and took the baby to bed.
 
Not sleepy for a variety of reasons, I hit the web. After checking email and looking for some research material - I got into an unexpected but fabulously rewarding AIM chat about poetic structure with a friend of mine in Denver.
 
I headed to bed close to three a.m., sleepy yet inspired.
 
The kid slept silently until about nine a.m. before he started to toss, turn, and kick us out of dreamland.
 
A short while later, he is sitting in his little walker-chair thing, eating pineapple chunks and teasing the cats with pieces of his toast. Contented, his chirpy little voice sings out a weird variety of syllables that I wish I understood.
 
Taking advantage of his preoccupation, I headed over to the bookcase where I keep my CD's to hunt for the appropriate wake up music for this morning.
 
When I was living alone, and didn't have to be as wary about who I might wake up, I made a habit of playing wake up songs to start my day off the right way. I used to have this huge boom box that had an alarm clock feature on it, and I would set the thing incredibly loud with various punka-rocka, heavy metal, or whatever else I could find to get me going in the mornings.
 
I would put the boom box on the sink; play songs while I showered - take it into the kitchen and let it help the morning coffee brew. Looking back, I woke up a lot to Killing Joke, The Clash, Pantera, Anthrax, Bad Brains, Public Enemy, and 24-7 Spyz. In my world, these bands helped to male up the major food groups of the mosh pit diet. And when you really needed to get out the door and make your way to class, or work -- you needed that sort of slash and burn type of breakfast to drag you out of bed.
 
Weekends started later, but music was still an integral part of the 'get up and come to life' process. Saturdays and Sundays usually brought jazz with breakfast. Coltrane, Miles -- there was a particular tape by Bob James and Earl Klugh that seemed to make any hangover seem less severe.
 
All these past favorites bubbled through my mind as I thumbed through the CD's looking for an appropriate choice. I've got a borrowed copy of "Who is Jill Scott?" that I have been listening to all week, sitting in the jewel case of my copy of "A Love Supreme" by John Coltrane. And while either of those discs would be the perfect compliment for this quiet Sunday morning with a cooing baby and the warmth of sunshine washing over the room, there's a song that's been running through my mind all morning that I absolutely have to hear in order to get rolling today.
 
"KKK Bitch" by Ice-T and Body Count.
 
I don't know -- sometimes you get that one tune in your head, and you just need to feed that monkey and put the thing in the CD player on infinite repeat. This morning was one of those times.
 
The baby has developed this "dance" of a sort where he waves his arms in the air and shakes his head back and forth, sort of like Stevie Wonder.
 
And so, with the steam from a fresh cup of coffee tickling my top lip and my son and I jamming out full bore to Ice-T -- I wake up, ready to face the day.

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