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I've never really been what you would call the "7 habits" type. To be honest, I don't really even know what any of the 7 habits are. I'd like to think of my organizational style as an "organic" one; sort of a "read and react" defensive style to dealing with the things that happen in my life.
 
I recognize that there is a value to planning, a benefit to longview thinking, and I even sometimes wish I was more disciplined when it comes to things like deadlines and due dates. But it's an uncomfortable fit for me to try to work within the confines of the organizational modes that most other people work in.
 
I'm a to-do list guy. If I get a lot on my plate at one time, my instinct tells me to whip out some scrap of paper, write down what I need to do, and try to get to things on the list before time runs out. For better or for worse, it's been my experience that when you have a ton of shit to get done in a short period of time -- the best way to approach it is to mix a healthy dose of fear for your job security with seven billion cups of coffee. It's an approach that is rough on your gut, but it gets things done.
 
If that doesn't make me sound like enough of a Larry, I also have this troubling habit of rarely making the list in the first place...
 
It's a flawed system. I've known for a while it's not the best way to do things, because even if I do manage to get everything on my list done, there's always something I forget to put on there. If it's not on the list it usually doesn't get done. Those are the things that sting me.
 
That's not to say that I don't get things done, though.
 
I take a lot of pride in working to be the best at what I do. I take a lot of pride in the fact that once I learn how to do something, I don't usually have to be shown a second time. I know where I'm supposed to be, and I do my best to get there. I'm not one for regimen, I really don't take any pleasure in repetition. I like getting my hands into new problems, figuring out the solutions. I'm not the first one in line to re-fix the recurring problems. It's not that I won't do it, it's just that it isn't that interesting to me.
 
I work at a company that is big on deadlines, huge on progress percentages, and absolutely orgasmic about having meetings. It's a big company, so a lot of it is understandable -- but sometimes it gets to the point where you're having a meeting to discuss the events of the post-mortem meeting for the previous months meetings.
 
It gets to the point where everytime you get out of one meeting, you're supposed to be at another, and heaven help you if you forget about it.
 
I do a pretty good job of keeping all the balls in play, but recently a lot of things in and out of work started to mingle into my daily consciousness and those balls started occasionally hitting the ground.
 
So it didn't surprise me a whole lot when my manager asked me to sign up for a training class that would introduce me to the Franklin Covey organizational system. The training class is pretty infamous around here for being over the top and sometimes inducing incredible emotional outpourings from it's participants. "They'll teach you how to organize your time, but then they examine your priorities and make you take a hard look at who you are and what your purpose in life is!"
 
...yay.
 
Somehow even before I signed up for the thing, I knew my midichlorian count wasn't going to be high enough...
 
Right after I started working here I began to notice that everyone seemed to have some sort of dayplanner on them wherever they went. Everyone had a little brown book with the little multicolored tabs and convenient pen holder on the side. Everyone brought them to the meetings and would write everything down in them.
 
I didn't have one.
 
But at the same time, I really didn't want one. Dayplanners are just the sort of nit-pick thing that tends to irk me inside. I know they work really well for other people and I don't have a problem with that.. but I really don't have a lot of interest in planning my life down to the last second. I enjoy challenges. I work well when the heat's on.
 
I want to be the one to steer the car. That way, if the backroad looks better than the interstate, I don't have to ask anyone before taking it...
 
Maybe it's just some sort of inborn stubbornness or something, but it's hard for me to get into a regimen of writing everything I'm going to do down when I know that most of the good stuff that happens to me is the stuff that comes along when I'm least expecting it. I don't want to be locked into everything, especially when everything I do isn't that important.
 
That being said, I was getting a little tired of arriving late to meetings where all the people in the meeting would look up at me from the pages of their little brown books and act like I was the weird one. There were times when it was hard not to sense a hammer covered in velvet hovering above my head.
 
So I signed up for the training, which was three weeks down the road.
 
As a final show of solidarity for my slack-ass ways, I refused to write down the time or date of the training anywhere.
 
Most of the people I have worked with have already taken the training, and they all have all the stuff that comes with it: the books, the satellite planners, the custom hole punches, the weekly compass cards... Any discussions about the class would bring mention of books like "The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People," "What Matters Most," and "Who Moved My Cheese."

 
People would turn to me and say.. "Are you a Hem or a Haw?"
 
To which I would reply, "Dude, it's me - Dan... remember?"

 
It got to the point where I was feeling like people were making an effort to seek me out just so they could make sure that I was going to take this class seriously. "Hey, I know we kid around - but there's some important stuff in this class that could really help you out."
 
Which sort of leads into the cause of my whole cynicism about the class in the first place. In the end, it wasn't really my organizational skills that people wanted to change, it was my attitude. I wasn't working the way they wanted me to be working. This has always been the point that starts to create lines in the sand for me. I have my own way of doing things.. It may not be the best system, but I need to believe in it. Trusting in my own abilities is important to me. I don't think people don't see that about me. I need to prove to myself and to other people around me that I can create a way to get my work done and still be Dan.
 
So in a small way, the implication of it all was kind of insulting. Sure, I'm sometimes bad about meeting times and exact deadlines, but what about all those projects I have worked on, you know -- the ones "no one else wants?" What about the quality of my work?
 
Still... there's this old saying that says if someone offers you a breath mint, you should take it...
 
So the day of the class came along, and I get myself into the room with all my other co-workers who had yet to take the plunge. We were treated to videos, word association exercises, and a buttload of quotes from people like Benjamin Franklin, Thomas Carlyle, and of course.. Anonymous.
 
I was sure that any minute that they were going to pull out that horrid speech about Abraham Lincoln losing every election he participated in except one, or that story about Winston Churchill pulling some guy out of a mud puddle. The whole thing felt a little packaged and plastic, a little too much like it was beign read off of 3x5 note cards. I tried to keep an open mind, and I did pick up a few organizational hints, but overall the experience didn't really do a whole lot to turn me into a red lectroid.
 
But -- I decided that with a new home to look after and a ton of responsibilities falling on my head now more than ever, maybe it wasn't the worst idea in the world to have a place to keep track of the meetings I was always forgetting to go to.
 
I wrote my name on the front of the book, and took the plunge.
 
That was about 2 weeks ago.
 
I've missed a couple of meetings that I forgot to write down, and I still have a ways to go before I can say that I'm giddy and excited whenever I check something off my prioritized time forward activated priority list, but I will say that I've gotten a little better at knowing who I've talked to and when I'm supposed to talk to them again.
 
It's been helpful to have - I will admit that.
 
But it's not changed my life.
 
Maybe it's just me -- maybe the things that I am hoping for in life aren't the type of things that can be put into a weekly life-plan minder and prioritized with little pictograms off to the side. Maybe I don't want to see if I can break my dreams down that way, don't want to put them on a page with lines inside a book with a clasp.
 
Maybe I prefer to let them run loose.

 
At one point we were instructed to take a sheet of paper out and write down a quality that we valued most in our life. After a moment's speculation I wrote down "Spontaneity"
The instructor looked at my paper and smiled at me. "That's great! Write it down in your planner!"
Reluctantly I jotted down a time next month to be spontaneous.
 
Hopefully I can keep the appointment.
 

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